Moving On....

Well I am not the type to wallow in my own self pity and man my last post sure seems like I enjoyed it. But honestly everyone needs to vent don't they? I wish I was the type to stop and just let the world rush on sometimes. But I am not. Ask my husband! I always have to pick myself up and dust myself off. No matter how many times I am pushed down I do it. Really I wish I could just sit in the dirt sometimes! I think sometimes lying there playing dead is a lot easier than moving on! But no, I guess I won't do it again!
So the Wednesday before I got laid off I just glanced at the open jobs on hotjobs. Just to take a look. And wouldn't you know it there was a part-time position open at a CPA firm. Well I thought oh, well I might as well try. I am sure I was somewhat prompted by someone to do this! I look in my files and wouldn't you know it, I already have a pretty good cover letter and resume on file from a year and a half ago. So I changed and revised things a bit and sent it off, with no other thoughts of it. Then Friday happened. But all weekend this CPA firm kept coming into my mind. I couldn't get it off my mind. I did more research and found the name of the firm, where it was located and the website etc etc. Monday rolls around, Tuesday afternoon rolls around and I hadn't heard anything. I thought oh, well I might as well follow up, I have nothing to loose! So I did. And wouldn't you know it, he emailed me back less than an hour later and asked me to call him. I went in the next day for an interview and was hired on the spot! I am so excited! I start tomorrow. I am still going to work directly under him for the next week or two then I am able to work from home as much or as little as I like/need!
What a blessing! The Lord truly works in mysterious ways! I know I have guardian angels watching out for me! I love them, and I am so thankful for the promptings of the holy ghost to guide me along! Gregg and I are truly blessed and I thank everyone for the sweet phone calls and comments left on my behalf! I have really needed them. You know when people are laid off I always worry about them financially, but I never really thought of how hard it is on your self-esteem! I think I was (in Anne of Green Gables terms!) in the 'depths of despair'. Gregg knows what it takes to get me going and thankful for him he did it for me again!

What else can go wrong?

Well the past month has been probably one of the worst months I have had in probably 6 years! They say bad things come in three.....

• loose a baby
• loose my job

what else can I count as the third? Well let's see:

• Gregg working his tail off to buy me a camera I have been dreaming of for I don't know how long being delivered right at the time I walk in from being laid off and having to refuse the package because I just can't justify spending that kind of money when I will not be bringing any in.........
  
• Having to call the vacation booking place to get a refund on the Disney vacation we paid for a month ago that I have been promising the boys we could take (that they have been trying so hard to earn money for).....thank the Lord I have not told them we were going yet.
  

I don't know, when it rains it poors! right now I am just numb. Not really thinking it would ever happen! Being part-time you are always on the chopping block. Employers think you are the most disposable when they need to cut costs because you are just 'part-time'. When in truth it is sort of true. Those that are full-time would have a much harder time being laid off than me.....but right now I have to be selfish and think of me.....why? why? why? You know at the beginning of the year I think the Lord was trying to prepare me for this. We were and are not in that much debt anyway (thank goodness). But it really made me think about everything and cut back on as much as we can. We were somewhat prepared. We have some money saved (a little) and we will see how long that lasts us. I am torn! I really like to work. I like to use my mind and what I went to school for so long for! I love being a mom and that is what tears me up! I really think the job I just lost was my dream job! When I was going to school and changed my major I specifically said I would really love to work at home part-time doing accounting for a local company......I guess I should know better that dreams don't always last! I have never been laid off and let me tell you that is probably one of the worst feelings you can ever have. Well I don't know loosing a baby is right up there too!
I have not posted about that one because it has not been a good subject to talk about. I found out we were pregant and wow what a surprise! I was starting to honestly feel that my three (four) boys and I were very content. I knew the last pregancy was not good for my body and my DR told me so. It is really hard to make the decision you are done, ya know? So anyway, I was starting to really feel like it was okay and we were done. Then I found out. Oh the emotions that went on in my head! Craziness! As I have posted about before my sweet little Zeke is well quite a handfull. There were many days I would cry going 'oh my word what am I going to do with another one?'. In fact it took me probably 6 weeks to come to grip with the fact I was pregnant. So 12 weeks rolls around and when the DR saw me and there was no heart beat, I felt like my heart stopped too! I was warming up to the thought of a sweet little one around the house. With a little glimmer of hope I could share the house with a girl?! NOPE too much to ask for. Then I felt sorry for myself thinking 'why did this have to happen to me?' haven't I lost enough babies in my life.....do I really have to go through this again? Oh my gosh!
I guess I got through the miscarriage, I will have to get through this! Why?
Thanks for letting me vent!

OUCH!

Okay, I think this year has been one of the toughest years for allergies in our family! I have had them horribly and so have all of the boys!!
By the way this looks it is super painful! Poor Kaden, he has been hit the hardest this year for sure. Every time he is out playing baseball or just out for a while he comes in looking like this! No, it is not Jaxon punching him in the eye (this time at least), it is those crappy allergies! I am really hoping all of this rain we have had will clear the air! At least he likes his Claritin!

Happy Happy Birthday!!

Happy happy birthday Greggy dear! Happy days will come to you all year, if I had one wish that it would be a happy, happy birthday to you from ME (us!)

Ah, what fun. We needed a quick get-away. What a perfect day! Gregg's birthday May 18th! (yes, I am a month behind!) Gregg wanted to take the boat out and have a little family fun! He has the best time of year for a birthday.....mine is always cold and dreary! He already has his next years festivities planned out.......
Zeke LOVES to drive.....doesn't he look adorable!
Kaden thinks he rocks! And right after this picture was taken made the coolest ninja karate type move you have ever seen!
Jaxon likes to play it cool! gimme and apple and a water and I am set!

Gregg, well I will spare him and not share the AWESOME picture I got of him!

I love you so much! Man, I can't believe you are already 35! I guess I will have to share the 35 things I love about you!

I LOVE HOW.......
1. You are always by my side
2. You support me when times are tough
3. You bring out the good things in me that I don't always remember to bring out! :)
4. You are an awesome Father
5. You are a big teddy bear under all that gruff
6. You give awesome tickles
7. You give awesome massages
8. You are the cutest little boy who likes his big toys!
9. You teach the boys the right
10. You tell me to buy whatever I want (why can't I do it?)
11. You have no clue about the bills! :)
12. You love to be in your bliss about the real world of money! I wish I could!
13. You love your mom and dad
14. You love to take it easy and remind me to relax.....
15. You have the memory I wish I had
16. You kicked butt at school and FINISHED!
17. You always get the little boy grin when you look at your big boy toys!
18. You are the worlds best lawn mower
19. Chocolate always cheers you up!
20. I love how you love to make me and the boys happy
21. You love your family
22. You love my parents
23. You love my family....mostly! :)
24. You have the most beautiful eyes!
25. You gracefully loose your hair
26. No matter how hard I work at trying to keep you on a good diet I always seem to find chocolate wrappers and zinger wrappers hidden somewhere........
27. You would still wear your Jeff Specoli shoes but don't out of respect for me?!
28. You still listen to 80's rap (when no one is around---in the closet!)
29. You take longer to get ready in the morning than me!
30. You sit through all of the wonderful 'family' outings you hate for me
31. You secretly like the dogs we have had for 13 years! (you still would never admit it)
32. You are still jumpy around spiders
33. You would wear shorts all year....even when blowing snow in the middle of winter
34. You know all music trivia I have ever heard
35. YOU ARE ALL MINE!!

I love you even though this is so late, we had fun on your day! And that is what matters most!